Mum,

I’m sorry I shouted at you.

I know that in my 32 years I have never shouted like that before.
I know that it was a simple misunderstanding that was quickly resolved.
I know that I apologised to you already

I still feel guilty about it.

I’m sorry I shouted at you.

*Read during The Apologies show on 3/31/07*

I'm sorry that I couldn't find a way to communicate how I was feeling, that I couldn't find a way past your awkardness to speak to your heart. I'm sorry that the mistakes you made changed everything and ended this before it began. I'm sorry that you don't see why this happened but see this as my personal character flaws and accept no responsibility for your own issues and actions.

Blame no one.

*Read at The Apologies show on 4/5/07*

I'm sorry but I still think of my ex-lover when we are having sex.

*Read during The Apologies show on 3/29/07*

Dad, I'm sorry I took your Vicodin. I am weak.

*Read during The Apologies show on 3/29/07*

I'm sorry that I let you talk to me that way.

I'm not sorry that I told your family you were dealing drugs and putting our kids in danger.

*Read at The Apologies show on 4/5/07*

Dear Mom and Dad,

I am sorry for getting so deep into drugs and cutting my wrists over and over, trying to escape. I am sorry that you ever thought my selfishness and immaturity was a reflection of your parenting. I am sorry that I made you suffer along with me as I hit rock bottom. I am sorry you ever thought that any part of it was your faults. I am sorry I don't have the balls to actually say these things out loud to you, but I don't think I can bear to make you cry ever again.

luv emily

*Read during The Apologies show on 3/31/07*

I am so sorry that I blew you off. I know you tried, but my feet were cold.
I am also sorry about the Ryan thing, I guess I was bored.

*Read during The Apologies show on 3/31/07*

I'm sorry to myself that I ever met you.
Your apology is a broken, empty, time beaten statement that holds no sincerity or validity on account of your actions that followed after the declaration.
I hate you because I love you.

*Read during The Apologies show on 3/29/07*

i'm sorry i tried to care about you, because you obviously don't care about anyone or anything but yourself.

*Read during The Apologies show on 3/29/07*

I'm sorry I didn't check up on you.
I'm sorry I didn't fight for your life.
I'm sorry I let them bury you alive.
*Read at The Apologies show on 4/6/07*

i'm sorry i didn't kiss you. that moment felt so right and i sat there thinking, "this, THIS, is what it's like to be in love with someone." it's different than i had expected, a whole new kind of passion and yet with the knowledge that i was completely and utterly safe to share my thoughts and ideas. that i could stay up hours upon hours, years upon years, talking with you and getting to know what you think about everything.

i want to know, and i want to share all this with you. you are everything and nothing that i knew i wanted. and i want to kiss you, again and again. and i wish i had because i have the sad feeling that i won't get the chance again -- but your heart belongs to another and i won't step over that line. i could deal with the rejection if it wasn't mutual, but i wouldn't want to put you in a place of awkwardness -- because i'd be even more sorry about that.

*Read during The Apologies show on 3/29/07*

I am sorry for letting things get out of hand, for not choosing to know better, for thinking that things with you and me would work out and that your family would just go along and be ok with it. We were both niave.
Im sorry for all the hurt that we caused eachother, for me loving you and you not being able to deal with that because you didn't feel the same way, because of all the guilt you felt and the hate that you had for yourself.
I'm sorry to myself, for getting so lost in you and giving so much of myself and my love to you that I hardly knew me any more. And that you made me feel like I was so disgusting and undesirable. I hate that I let you do that to me, and made me feel that way. You were not a man! Im sorry that we stayed together so long, and that when I wanted to, I was not strong enough to end it with you and actaully mean it. I thought that I needed you more then I needed me. You hurt me for so long, were rude and blatently mean to me, when I would have given you everything, all of me and all you had to do was ask. But I know that even then, that would not have been enough for you. I hate that I am not over you yet, that I still think about you, and hope that I will see you on the train. You broke me, but I am putting myself back together and know that I will be better off with out you. I'm sorry that you were to blind to realise how great I was, and how great we really could have been together.

xSGx

*Read during The Apologies show on 3/30/07*

I'm sorry that i let you hurt me time and again.
I'm sorry that i go running back to you every time you call.
I'm sorry for crying every time you ignore me.
I'm sorry for feeling the way i feel about you.
I'm sorry for telling the world about my feelings for you, via my blog.
I'm sorry that you made me feel safe from the first moment you put your arms around me.
But I'm not sorry for having met you, not at all.
It was one of the best days of my life, just like every other time i've see you.
I'm not sorry i waitied for an hour and a half on christmas day in the pouring rain to meet you, because you came eventually.
I'm not sorry for savouring the sweet nothings you whisper in my ear. Although they are nothing, they're amazing just because they came for you.
But i'm sorry for letting you do this to me.
I love you.

--- Bonnie

*Read during The Apologies show on 3/30/07*

I need this to reflect a better truth.

Stepbrother.

After the police cautioned you to stop touching me, I still didn't feel safe. I told my teacher that you tried again to rub on me in the hallway. You didn't. No one believed you.
The police hit you in the privates with a phonebook.
You cried. I felt power.
Finally, you got to experience shame and injustice too.

HG

*Read during The Apologies show on 3/31/07*

I'm sorry I have to tell those "little white lies" but the ADD doesn't help much either.

*Read during The Apologies show on 3/30/07*

I'm sorry I'm not the person I wanted to be, and I'm sorry that I hate myself for feeling that way.
*Read at The Apologies show on 4/6/07*

I'm sorry your HMO doesn't cover that type of injury.
---Nathan

*Read at The Apologies show on 4/5/07*

Stepbrother,
I am sorry that I lied to the police and said you were still abusing me.
It was only because the first time I spoke up and told the truth - you were not punished enough. For once I took power into my hands and made sure you got what you deserved. I know you know this and yet I am too ashamed to admit it. I had to convince myself you were evil in order to cause you so much pain.
--- Heroinegirl

*Read during The Apologies show on 3/31/07*

I'm sorry that I said "I love you" and didn't mean it.

---Harry Manning
*Read at The Apologies show on 4/6/07*

I'm sorry for the way I treated you last year. You are my best friend and I really wish I had never done that at all.
I'm sorry I wasn't really the person you thought I was.
I'm sorry you didn't think of me when this happened.
I'm sorry I lied to you about everything.
I'm sorry I don't do my homework.
I'm sorry I followed you.
I'm sorry I am a fake.

--- Harry Manning
*Read at The Apologies show on 4/6/07*

Person 1: I'm sorry for hooking up with your other ex-girlfriend after you broke up, and being the reason why she wouldn't get back with you. I'm sorry.

Person 2: I'm sorry for hooking up with your older sister. And also you younger sister. I'm sorry.

Person 3: I'm sorry for hooking up with your bestfriend and being the reason that you are now ex-bestfriends. I'm sorry.

Person 4: I'm sorry for letting you date my ex-girlfriend, and not telling you that she was a total psycho. I did that on purpose. I hope she didn't harm you in any way when you broke up with her, and if she did, I'm sorry.

I know we live a Melrose Place life, and although I cannot control this, I am still deeply sorry!

*Read at The Apologies show on 4/7/07*

I'm sorry for stealing money from the UNICEF box and spending it on penny candies.

*Read during The Apologies show on 3/31/07*

I'm sorry for all those parked cars I've dinged and then fled the scene like a little chicken because nobody saw it.

*Read during The Apologies show on 3/30/07*

I'm so sorry I had to pee. But I really had to pee. That reference to Niagra Falls didn't help any.

*Read during The Apologies show on 3/29/07*

Mom. I'm sorry you're dying and I can't do anything to stop it. You are my best friend and your brain tumor is killing me too. XO --- Deb

*Read during The Apologies show on 3/31/07*